Silent Cries

Josh Cullen is set to take us on a shattering trip down memory lane with his newest single, Silent Cries. As he continues to write his solo songs, he is developing the ability to hold a listener's heart in his heart and make you feel whatever he wants you to feel. He started with Yoko Na, a song he released in collaboration with Al James. That song will make you think about your relationships and will teach you that it's okay to give up and walk away. In fact, there are moments when you actually have to run away as fast as you can. Then he released another song, Sumaya.

As someone who dwells on the lyrics and meaning of a song, I couldn't listen to that song without crying, and I am sure that many others feel the same way about the song. The acceptance that at one point, we have to let those we love the most go for them to be happy and flourish is often terrifying and difficult to accept. Now, Josh released another song that will throw you into the abyss and will make you think about your life. Listening to the song inside my room, alone, gave me the ambiance needed to truly feel the message of the song and it did.

I've been searching for the pieces of the child who died

Searching for the man who's got his dreams declined

Been drowning in the dark, wish I could find the light

Through silent cries

For those who know Josh's story, this first part will surely hit right in the heart. On numerous occasions, he'd been honest in admitting that he had a terrible childhood. From their financials declining, the abuse he and his sister experienced from someone who was supposed to take care of them, and the inability to finish his primary education, Josh had to grow up too fast. He used to feel unlucky and resent the world and life in general for everything he had to go through. When he first realized that he wanted to be a performer, someone close to him even told him not to be delusional, that wouldn't make it.

Yes, Josh is a strong man. He survived everything, but who knows how much toll those horrible experiences took on him. No one has even an inkling of how he managed to become the man he is today after everything. He has his battle scars, and I can't begin to imagine how hard it must have been to remain strong and be positive despite all of it.

Every day feels like battles, scars and marks, all right

Life of never-ending struggle, getting pushed to not what I want

All I ever ask for is for God to save my hand

Oh, I'm not okay, wanna run away

Thought tomorrow's getting better

In this cycle trapped forever losing my mind

Is it really meant for me to cry then hate my life?

Oh, I'm not okay, wanna run away

No matter how strong you are as a person, when you go through horrible things in life, when the world seems to be enjoying beating you down, it will one day break you one way or another. Yes, it is our choice if we allow it to defy who we are and keep us down, but the pain will always be there. We can always choose to be happy but the truth is, deep inside, we will still feel the pain. It's like a shadow that follows us, a monster that lurks in the darkest crevices of our minds, waiting for the perfect moment to attack.

We keep wishing, praying, begging even for life to somehow be fair to us, for God to finally hear our cries, but nothing. Pain just constantly keeps getting worse every single day. We can wear our smiles day by day but at nightfall, when we are finally alone, it would feel like the bright, colorful world just suddenly crumbles around us, revealing the darkness that's always been there. What's worse is, people don't seem to notice our struggles, or maybe they simply don't care.

Lost but don't wanna bе found

I've been screaming without a sound

Wherе do I go?

Where do I hide?

Where do I run?

Eventually, for some people, the solemn silence of being alone in our own dark world becomes peaceful. Unconsciously, we begin to feel safe in our suffering. This feeling is what pushes some people to detach themselves from society. As painful and lonely as it may be, being alone and suffering in silence often becomes a haven. In these moments, we don't need to smile and laugh anymore. We can finally remove the mask we wore for the day and leave it in the corner for tomorrow's use.

Many of us are suffering this exact way and we don't even know. Normally, we don't even ask because we see them as happy people. The truth is, that people who suffer in silence just become a master of their own emotions. You won't see them suffering in public because they have long realized that nobody cares. They would rather do it alone when no one's looking because that's when they feel the safest. So be there for them even when they think they don't need you.